I wonder what people really think of me? I change so often trying to figure out who I am, that i think people look at me for my mistakes and not my progress.
I use to be so mean and bitter towards family, and i mean really mean, because i was being told things that hurt me and i didn't understand why family was saying those things, and on top of that, i didn't even know if they were really saying them. But what am i suppose to believe when i trusted this person soo much. So i Bit back and it only hurt me in the long run. I felt left out and jealous because of it. I felt like they were secretly talking about me and my flaws. I was very paranoid.
Today, I am closer to my mother in law, I still feel like we could be closer but it takes time. She is a wonderful person and mother. She is working with Highschool students and is great at it! She has a wonderful family that absolutley jumps up to help as much as they can. Even if it is just a phone call. I don't know her history or what she has been through, but i know her now and today. She really tries to keep her family close and i think she has finally succeeded. She was always sweet to me when Bryan and I were dating. She has carried a lot on her plate for years and she has become a stronger person because of it.
Today i am closer to my sister in law, She has been a great example to me. I love how she is with her family that has grown so much. She has a lot of strength too and i know that she is grateful for everything she has. She really has learned alot and is very intelligent. She inspires me to stand strong in our faith. I had a lot of fun with her when i went to visit and i miss her a lot.
I use to be back and forth with who i am, I have done a few things to impress people, to try and fit in with them. Don't worry i didn't Drink, smoke, or sexual things.lol but i did feel like i was living a double standard life. i felt like i had to it in with people. but yuou know what,
Today i feel like i don't have to try and fit in with people, but people should have to try and fit in with me. ( which isn't hard). I feel like i am happy with myself and everything i have accomplished. I have many more accomplishments to come! Life is really amazing and you can live it to the fullest without a double standard life. I really do know how to deal with trials easly but i just have to stick to it. With a positive outlook you can defeat anything.
I use to be a people pleaser. have to please everyone and thats just as bad.
today, I stand up for myself. I've grown up. I've realized i can't do everything but i can do something. I realized just being what i want to be and doing things on my own balanced time, i end up helping people without knowing it. Being you helps more people than you know.
I use to be so mean and bitter towards family, and i mean really mean, because i was being told things that hurt me and i didn't understand why family was saying those things, and on top of that, i didn't even know if they were really saying them. But what am i suppose to believe when i trusted this person soo much. So i Bit back and it only hurt me in the long run. I felt left out and jealous because of it. I felt like they were secretly talking about me and my flaws. I was very paranoid.
Today, I am closer to my mother in law, I still feel like we could be closer but it takes time. She is a wonderful person and mother. She is working with Highschool students and is great at it! She has a wonderful family that absolutley jumps up to help as much as they can. Even if it is just a phone call. I don't know her history or what she has been through, but i know her now and today. She really tries to keep her family close and i think she has finally succeeded. She was always sweet to me when Bryan and I were dating. She has carried a lot on her plate for years and she has become a stronger person because of it.
Today i am closer to my sister in law, She has been a great example to me. I love how she is with her family that has grown so much. She has a lot of strength too and i know that she is grateful for everything she has. She really has learned alot and is very intelligent. She inspires me to stand strong in our faith. I had a lot of fun with her when i went to visit and i miss her a lot.
I use to be back and forth with who i am, I have done a few things to impress people, to try and fit in with them. Don't worry i didn't Drink, smoke, or sexual things.lol but i did feel like i was living a double standard life. i felt like i had to it in with people. but yuou know what,
Today i feel like i don't have to try and fit in with people, but people should have to try and fit in with me. ( which isn't hard). I feel like i am happy with myself and everything i have accomplished. I have many more accomplishments to come! Life is really amazing and you can live it to the fullest without a double standard life. I really do know how to deal with trials easly but i just have to stick to it. With a positive outlook you can defeat anything.
I use to be a people pleaser. have to please everyone and thats just as bad.
today, I stand up for myself. I've grown up. I've realized i can't do everything but i can do something. I realized just being what i want to be and doing things on my own balanced time, i end up helping people without knowing it. Being you helps more people than you know.
