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Well we took our first step to getting back to what we know is right and true!! Some people look at me like, you have already been through the temple, why would you want to take temple classes again. well, it's a comfort for me. i feel like i didnt do it right the first time and went through all the classes except for two by myself because of Bryan's job at the time. I am fully aware how this may look to others but it doesn't matter. i am doing this for me and my little family. It gave me a chance to hear my husband's point of veiw concidering he doesn't talk much about spiritual things. It has already gave me reassurance that we are doing good.

ugh.

Some people just irritate the crap out of me.lol
I just get so annoyed when people take credit for your
ideas. like i threw out a lot of ideas for what we
should do as an FRG and of course there is this one girl
that thinks she is the creator behind it all.lol i can't
really explain it. but it's like i throw out the idea and she
get's credit for it.

Well yesterday we had baby boy flipped back into position but baby boy decided to flip upwards again doing his own thing. i really don't want to get a c section just because it takes longer to heal. on a happy note i went and spent my husbands money.lol i little more than i should have, but i bought new bras and a couple new outfits. that made me feel better. hehehe

tomarrow we start our temple classes. it should be interesting. Bryan hasn't been to the temple for a while but thats ok. i love him so much!!! he is really really an awesome guy. any girl would want him.

breech baby

Well i am a little disappointed. I just found out that my baby boy is breech. it's not bad but it's not good. i want to shout it out to the world cause it is stressing me out, but at the same time i don't want people thinking i want attention. I go in for a procedure tomarrow the only thing is, my husband goes in for surgery tomarrow as well. i don't have a babysitter because the people i thought i could trust just complain about helping people. i can't wait to get out of flagstaff and make new friends. Maybe it's my attitude cause i am just exhausted, but i really feel like people are being fake with me. On a good note, i am taking temple classes to start over.lol i am ready to get back on track for my family. boy am i exhausted.lol i can't stop thinking about how tired i am.

Bryan Micheal Jr. 35 weeks

I am starting to feel it again. Starting to worry what people think or if they are mad at me even though i know I haven't said anything negative about them to anyone. What happened was we were planning farewell party for two families that are leaving and one family can't make it on the day my friend planned it on but i had told my friend to double check with that family to see if it will work cause i thought they said they were leaving on the 30th of Jan. Well she didn't call or anything she just made the plans for there farewell and of course it wasn't going to work for them. So instead of changing the date my friend said oh well sorry but i can't do anything about changing the date or having a second party cause she can't afford it. So i talked to my husband and told him that i don't think it is fair that everyone else gets a farewell and this one family doesn't. He agreed. so we planned a small farewell for them and of course this family said thank you publicly and now my friend won't talk to me.lol why is she mad at me? Just because she doesn't get a long with this couple doesn't mean they don't deserve the same treatment as everyone else. i don't know. i guess if she is mad at me than she is mad at me. but i didn't do anything wrong.

I am really excited for the next few weeks!! it is going to be very busy. Today the 12th i have a doctors appointment, 13th, i get a four day with my sweet husband, 14th going over to some friends homes to have a game night, 15th i have a tour of the hospital, church, and then a meeting to get some notebooks put together for our Relief society activity on the 17th. And the 16th i am getting together with some great friends and going to get pedicures done! Then on the 27th i am throwing a farewell party for a couple of our friends because they are leaving flagstaff and headed to colorado. then Feb 3 we have another farewell for some friends that are headed to Washington state. the 4th i have two baby showers.....then from there on i just prepare for our little guy to come.

Well so much has changed in the past few months. i am 34 weeks pregnant with a baby boy that will be named Bryan Micheal Jr. he just wiggles and wiggles. I am so sore but only have 6 weeks left.

Ellie is doing great! she is growing so quickly. Today she came to me and told me she had to go potty so i took her and of course she went!!! i couldn't be more proud! she is forming her words more and more clearly as days go by. i can't wait for the nice sunshine to come out because i do so much better when the sun is out. i am trying so hard to do my own thing without letting people hold me back or letting myself hold me back. i want to be this such active mother and wife yet i am so lazy about it. i feel guilty spending my husbands money.