Monday, December 15, 2008

FAITH

Yesterday at church we had a question asked to us, it was what is faith? Of course i know the answer but how do you put it into words? Many people said its believing without seeing, hope, trust and Confidence in something or someone. They also mentioned power.
Then i had talked to one of my closest friends about what we talked about in church and he said what faith ment to him. He mentioned three words that i can't remember but one of that stuck out was the word fear. I can see why people would fear the unknown, but i also told him thats why we have the light of christ to light the way.lol
Anyways, it was a great conversation and it just added more security to my faith in my heavenly father.

"The Apostle Paul taught that "faith is the substance [assurance] of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen" (Hebrews 11:1). Alma made a similar statement: "If ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true" (Alma 32:21). Faith is a principle of action and power. Whenever we work toward a worthy goal, we exercise faith. We show our hope for something that we cannot yet see.

The scriptures say that there must be “an opposition in all things.”15 So it is with faith, hope, and charity. Doubt, despair, and failure to care for our fellowmen lead us into temptation, which can cause us to forfeit choice and precious blessings.
The adversary uses despair to bind hearts and minds in suffocating darkness. Despair drains from us all that is vibrant and joyful and leaves behind the empty remnants of what life was meant to be. Despair kills ambition, advances sickness, pollutes the soul, and deadens the heart. Despair can seem like a staircase that leads only and forever downward.
Hope, on the other hand, is like the beam of sunlight rising up and above the horizon of our present circumstances. It pierces the darkness with a brilliant dawn. It encourages and inspires us to place our trust in the loving care of an eternal Heavenly Father, who has prepared a way for those who seek for eternal truth in a world of relativism, confusion, and of fear.

Hope is not knowledge,17 but rather the abiding trust that the Lord will fulfill His promise to us. It is confidence that if we live according to God’s laws and the words of His prophets now, we will receive desired blessings in the future.18 It is believing and expecting that our prayers will be answered. It is manifest in confidence, optimism, enthusiasm, and patient perseverance.


Anyways, you can find the whole talk here: http://www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f318118dd536c010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=25c5a0ad4843d110VgnVCM100000176f620a____&hideNav=1

Friday, December 12, 2008

Who am I?


Well, i haven't wrote in a very long time.
Today i just feel like i don't know who i am or who i want to be. I don't know how to stand strong anymore, and i can't remember anything.
lastnight, i went to my little brother's Music Concert and it reminded me of my family. I miss going to the symphony, i miss going to the Nutcracker every christmas with my Grandma and Grandpa. I will never forget my grandpa's smell, he was always such a handsome fellow. I miss going to musicals that my grandpa had worked on. i went to a couple, my memory is very small compared to then, but i guess thats why they ask us to write in our journals. I went and saw les miserable, i remember knowing exactly how things were going to turn out because i had listened to the music so often with my aunt shawna.
I got to see Alice in Wonderland, My grandpa was in the big Catipillar.lol i got to see Peter Pan, A female played peter pan and they made her fly across the audiance at the end and they sprinkled glitter everywhere for pixie dust! I miss fairytale stories. They are always soo happy.
Anways, i got a little side tracked.lol When i went to my brother's symphony i teared up because of how wonderful the music was. So many memories, and so many memories lost. It quite sad. i have been so busy being critical towards my family cause its easy to get lost in the negaticity. but i want to write about the positive things that brought me back home.
Well, i will start with heather, she drives me nuts because she is the youngest and gets away with everything. and i mean EVERYTHING. but i know she is going to be great in young womens. Dustin just absolutly blows me away. He is just an amazing young man. He is still obnoxious but he loves me soooo much!! and he is so proud of me, and i haven't done anything.lol i can't believe how much he looks up to me, and i am just fake. I am so proud of how much he has accomplished and his musical talent just amazes me. His music just is magical and i miss the feeling of magical.
My brother mike-He is just a stud.lol he is very smart and book smart at that, he has all these girls hanging on him, but he has a passion for his mission. I can only pray that he keeps that passion that so many of us have lost.
Brenda, I don't know too much about brenda anymore accept she loves her cell phone
Katie is out on her own, i think she is coming back home and i am glad about it for my parents. its not that they dont want her to go out on her own, it was just her choices that she used to go. Not that i have any room to speak. I am probably the worst out of us all. i can't keep any covenants i make. I don't know what to do anymore. I loved being who i was in highschool, and i can't go back. i have to make due with what i am today. i keep saying i don't know what to do, but i really do. Its just doing it. I have also been catigorized as talk the talk but i don't walk the walk. Have i put myself in a state of apostasy? I have been given so much, and in return i have made christ bleed even more for my mistakes that i know before i make them. Why do i have such a hard time standing up for what i believe in now?
All i want is to explore the world, graduate college, and raise a healthy family. I don't need to experience certain things in life, i will take others words for it, but i do need to stand firmer and its going to be a hard battle, but i need to. I know the truth and there is no denying it. as much as i want to go and play, i can't i really need to stay a hold of that Iron rod that i have fallen off many times. I have to stay firm or i loose everything.