No one can take it away from me.

So i feel like i am on the top of the world, and nothing at the moment can ruin my happiness and the smile i feel in my heart.

Let me tell you when it began.

I was at work last week and it just felt like there was a lot of tention for no reason. You literly could just feel it! Everyone just wanted to quit! It was just frustrating. So i decided for my own welbeing, that i needed to do something. Even if it was little. The weather has been nice and i felt that we needed flowers.lol

I bought everyone a sunflower, Number one they are beautiful, but number two the sunflower is very symbolic in many ways.

My friend Ricky is always telling me to be me. Not to worry about trying to fit in. I think that is where some of the tention was in my own heart was because i wanted to fit in. I hate not having anyone to talk to or hang out with. I decided you know what! i dont need to fit in! I am going to do what i want anyways! ( yes i took ricky's advice). So anyways, i decided to be me and get these flowers. it was the best feeling for myself! I haven't done service for anyone in a very long time! I am telling you, I haven't seen so many smiles in a long time. I found a quote that said if you feel like giving up, try and remember why you started there in the first place. or something to that affect. It was perfect. It definatly lifted spirits. Being myself was perfect for that moment and since then I have been happy. that was on Thursday, Friday i was invited by haley to go out. Saturday, Maralee and Andrea invited me on a day trip to Rothenberg! It is sooo beautiful and it was great to hang out with people that i had something in common with. Maralee made me think more about traveling, more motivation to do what i want to do in life. She is 25 and has done a few humanitarian trips. Why not! i would love to do that! That trip was just perfect and beautiful. It reminded me of why i love my life so much. Then later that night i was invited to my Friend Sabrina's house for a party! I was the center of attention.lol it was great, i don't feel like i have one of those moments in a long time. Then on Sunday! Once again i had this wonderful wonderful energy in me. I am fulfilling my calling in the church! it is little work but i don't think i could handle anymore. Then later that day i went on a picnic with Andrea and Maralee. It felt like we have known eachother forever. We walked up to engineer lake and stayed three hours just sitting and talking. It was absolutely amazingly beautiful. I also met new people. That made me feel good, because that means when Bryan come's home we have people to hang out with.lol

I just know that because i am on a high now, something is going to try and pull my spirit down, but i am not going to let it. There is a positive to everything, and i know how to deal with it. I am in charge of my happiness i can let it be a lot of happiness or a little bit. and no one can take that away from me. No one.

Anyways,