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Just sitting here watching my sweetheart play starcraft wishing it was light out so I can fix my yard. Doing yard work alone is so peaceful and it actually makes me feel like I am accomplishing something. Its nice to know that I can make something beautiful after dealing with so many negative thoughts. Its nice being away without actually being away. I just want to talk yet I have nothing to talk about. I wish I had some uplifting quotes or books to read. I feel like going for a run. I just want to jump on my bed and laugh. Out loud for no reason. Ha this is such a strange blog.lol. I'm a dreamer not a doer.

perfect spirit returned to heaven today

people have such great faith in our lord. Sometimes i wonder if i have that much faith, but then again i don't want to go through what they did to find out. you always think you have it hard until someone else comes a long to put you back in your place.

Today, my husbands aunt announced the death of her sons child. The mother was in labor for three days with a nine pound baby boy. this is what the mother had to say:

Whitney Butler Hawkins: Today our sweet baby boy, Maximus Kyle Hawkins was delivered after 3 days of laboring and finally came after an emergency c-section. 9 lbs 10 oz, 20 inches long. Our precious Max was too perfect for this world and returned to his Heavenly Father. We love and miss him dearly but know he is in a better place watching over us as our angel. We love you, Maximus! You will be in our hearts always...

As i am reading this my child, my little girl is laying next to me asleep. i am trying not to cry but when you have such a wonderful child that you get a little overwhelmed wih because you have no idea what you are doing and she is fighting you to sleep because all she wants to do is be like mommy and stay awake, then all of a sudden you read about another mother who didn't get this chance with her child. this mother may be in pain who wouldn't be, but i have to tell her thank you for such great faith because her pain opened my heart even more. I pray that her family can find more peace during this hard time. i can only sympathize and it won't be later until they understand the picture being painted before them. from the sounds of it they already see some, but not all. i really hope they can find peace and comfort during this hard time. i really can't imagine loosing my child, and i pray and hope that i won't have to find out.

The Divinity of Womanhood

The Divinity of Womanhood

"I wonder if you sisters fully understand the greatness of your gifts and talents and how all of you can achieve the 'highest place of honor' in the Church and in the world. One of your unique, precious, and sublime gifts is your femininity, with its natural grace, goodness, and divinity. Femininity is not just lipstick, stylish hairdos, and trendy clothes. It is the divine adornment of humanity. It finds expression in your qualities of your capacity to love, your spirituality, delicacy, radiance, sensitivity, creativity, charm, graciousness, gentleness, dignity, and quiet strength. It is manifest differently in each girl or woman, but each of you possesses it. Femininity is part of your inner beauty.

"One of your particular gifts is your feminine intuition. Do not limit yourselves. As you seek to know the will of our Heavenly Father in your life and become more spiritual, you will be far more attractive, even irresistible. You can use your smiling loveliness to bless those you love and all you meet, and spread great joy. Femininity is part of the God-given divinity within each of you. It is your incomparable power and influence to do good. You can, through your supernal gifts, bless the lives of children, women, and men. Be proud of your womanhood. Enhance it. Use it to serve others."

James E. Faust, "Womanhood: The Highest Place of Honor," Ensign, May 2000, 96

Topics: Womanhood