Two thoughts

Have you ever wondered how to have the perfect life? what would your perfect life be? There are so many things on my mind that just makes me even more grateful that i am who i am. Do i have mixed feelings, of course. But i decided that i enjoy being by myself and not so close to family. Don't get me wrong, i love being with my family here and there, but when your by yourself you learn about who you are and want to be. you learn about what you want to succeed in and not worry as much about the way family looks at you even if you made a choice that wasn't the best and you don't have anyone to say i told you so a million times. I think the trick is to keep your failures to yourself and try again a different way.
I think its crazy how people blame their parents for their life going crappy. You were given free agency and you have the choice to turn your life around and not live the life your parents lived and who said that their way of life was so bad, i mean for myself I've had fun and love having family values maybe as a child i felt so picked on and had to pull my weight in the family, but it has taught me a lot. I grew up poor and my Mom had to have two jobs to help out, and the least i could do is help be responsible and babysit or help clean the house. I mean i lived in the house too. I love the way i was raised and i really did learn responsibility. Sometimes your parents make mistakes so we can learn from them too, but a lot of people think well you did it so let me learn for myself. Fine. If that's what you want to do, but i trust my parents and if they say something isn't right then it probably isn't right. I mean i am human and i haven't always followed what my parents have said, but all in all, i think they have it right. I've always wanted to raise a strong family my way. Where the gospel is the center but not so intense that that is all we believe, I want my children to be raised in confidence in themselves and know that they don't have to do certain things to be the best and fit in. That they can be the best and still enjoy the world. I want them to be so confident that they don't try and fit in with the people around them, but the people will want to try and fit in with them. I want to raise them so they see the positive side of life no matter what trials may come. I know they are going to have to see and live some horrible experiences but i hope that they aren't so bad that they blame God for their issues and instead just have an open heart and say ok, i can deal with this. I hope i can have an honest relationship with my children and raise them with understanding that as much as I love them, they have to deal with the consequence of their choices and that their choices can be a life time affect. I don't want my children to be brain washed with what i believe but i do want them to have respect for what i believe. and i will do my best to respect what they believe even if its not what is technically right. That is how they learn about who they are and who they want to be. I hope that my children will be their best and accepting to situations that come into their life. WE are hitting really hard times where morals and values are going down the drain. I feel it in myself, but i am determined to stand up for who i am and who i want to be. I know i can do anything i want as long as i am grateful.